Warning: this is a rant
I can’t stand when other people try to make me feel bad for never trying anything new. I am a very picky person ever since I was a little kid. I hated vegetables that actually mattered. Corn and potatoes were the only vegetables I ate. Never ate red meat and I don’t eat it now. Every time I go to a restaurant, I get chicken tenders or strips. It’s what I know and what I know I like.
My mother and others who know me try to pressure me into trying new things. It gets old and irritating to have to be under that pressure. As an adult, I do try to branch out a little more, but not too far. I still only eat chicken. I never had steak. I hate BBQ. I don’t eat ribs. I stopped eating seafood which only consisted of me eating shrimp.
I recently went to Benihana for the first time. I got the Hibachi chicken that came with vegetable fried rice and grilled zucchini with onions. It tasted great. I actually loved a meal with color. I then went back to Benihana two days later and ordered the same thing. I found that I liked it less. While it did taste good, I realized it wasn’t a meal that I would eat frequently. Maybe I had lied to myself and pretended that I liked it when I prefer my chicken tenders and mashed potatoes. I left Benihanas that time unsatisfied.
I usually don’t follow trends, but for whatever I reason, I decided to hop on the train and check out Fashion Nova. Fashion Nova is a clothing company who sell cute, good quality clothes. I’m not the type of person who spends all their money on clothes. I don’t ever go shopping. All my money usually goes to electronics and food. It hurt my soul a little to spend 24 dollars on jeans because I literally never buy clothes. I still have shirts that I wore in middle school. The only time I get new clothes is when someone buys me clothes for my birthday or Christmas.
So, I buy a pair of high-waisted jeans and a bodysuit. Something in my gut told me not to buy a bodysuit. I don’t know why I pushed forward and bought one when it was such a hassle for me to choose one that I liked. Well, I bought it, and it came today.
First, the jeans didn’t fit, so I have to return those. Thankfully, the jeans are returnable.
The bodysuit fit, but I don’t like the way it fits. I’m still not sure if I’m supposed to wear underwear with this bodysuit because it does ride up and I’m not about that. I also don’t like that it snaps in the private area. It does make sense to have that so I could efficiently use the bathroom, but it only feels uncomfortable. I can feel it there, and I know I couldn’t wear this bodysuit all day. Unfortunately, the bodysuit is nonrefundable.
That means I spent 15 dollars on a bodysuit that I will never.
This is why I hate trying new things because I end up wasting money.
I don’t blame fashion nova. They have beautiful clothes, and I do plan on buying a romper from them because I KNOW I like rompers. I KNOW rompers are comfortable on my body. This is why I want to stick with what I know. This is what I get for going out of my lane and trying to look like someone that isn’t me. I blame myself.
Now, change is still necessary. I’m not saying that people should never change because that would cause many problems I society. If no one ever changed and tried something new, then black people would still be slaves. If nothing ever changed, women would still be seen and not heard. If nothing changed, same-sex marriage wouldn’t be legal. We need change.
We need change, but not when it comes to my freaking chicken.
The next time I’m out, let me order my chicken tenders and don’t say a dang word about it. I’ll gladly eat chicken tenders for the rest of my life. It’s my life, and I will do what I want.
Get off my back!